We dog owners love all dogs and especially our dogs. We have memories of our dogs from childhood, adolescence, adulthood, and if we're lucky enough to make it, our golden years. While every dog has a special place in our hearts, there is usually one who sticks out in our memories, even after they start to fade. The One will surface in your dreams 50 years after he crossed the bridge. When you see other dogs on the street - you'll be reminded of the one.
This is the story about The One in my life (I actually have two ones, but I'll save the other for another story): Goober.
Goober wasn't always called Goober. When we first brought him home as an 8-week-old puppy, his name was Louie and he looked liked Marlo Brando in The Godfather. Over a year or so, my family realized that he had a personality not like a mob boss but like a Buddha. He's a tri-colored shih tzu and is about 150% larger than he should be (most males weigh around 15 lbs, he tips the scales at 22.5), but he isn't fat. He's just big. And it's a good thing because when we brought him home almost 15 years ago, my sister was a couple months away from being conceived. After she was born, she would bang on him like a drum, tackle him, pull on his tail and face. He never minded it at all.
I was 11 when we picked him up from the breeder. I still remember the ride home with the tiny shaggy puppy in my lap. He slept the whole way. His training crate was set up in my room and ready to go - this was my dog and I knew on that ride home we were buds. He slept next to me almost every night for the next 7 years, until I moved away to college.
Goober is turning 15 in April and he lives with my mom (who fortunately lives close to me so I get to see him all the time). By the time I had the chance to take him back and have him live with me - he was too used to my Mom's house. If I brought him to my house, he would stress while I was gone and he was home alone (I assume due to the new surroundings) and I didn't want to put him through that. He is now completely deaf and nearly blind and my mom's afraid to move the furniture on him. When I come over to the house and he starts to talk & waits for me to pick him up and love on him. We are still best buds - in part because of what we have gone through together.
Like many teenagers, I had some struggles growing up. I suffered from depression, and I abused drugs and alcohol. My mom was in a tumultuous and sometimes violent relationship which made me even more confused. Goober was my only friend at times and the only creature who experienced the traumas with me.
When my mom and step-dad would fight, we would run to my room together and cuddle. If I wasn't home, he'd hide under my bed. I'd turn up the music to muffle the yelling and pet him until I fell asleep. I'd wake up in the morning and he'd still be in my arms. It wasn't all good between us, though. I had some anger issues and he was sometimes the only one there for me to express my frustrations. There were times I would scream at him, push him away from me, or hit him (it pains me today to think about it) for no good reason other than I had learned no other means of expressing myself. Goober understood and never let it affect our relationship for long. As soon as I needed my friend and recognized it wasn't him I was angry at, he would be there for me again. If it weren't for Goober, I'm not sure I'd have made it through those years.
Goober is in his golden years now and I feel like I'm just starting my life. Just writing this post makes me cry because I'm very aware that he won't be in my life much longer. I wonder how I'll get through the really tough stuff that is ahead. And that's where Goober is really magical. He taught me so much when no one else could. He taught me to stay patient and be loving - no matter what. He taught me that real friends, while few and far between, are more important than anything material because they will save your life in one way or another, even if they can't talk. Finally, he taught me to forgive myself and without that, I would not be here. Goober is The One because he saved my life and taught me to be a better person.